While the classmates and I were doing projects, they were stressing hard. And i was wondering, why so stressed? Turns out that exams was just in abt 2 weeks time and there are countless projects with the datelines nearly. Thats when i freak, like really freak out. I mean, i just realised that all along i have been that clueless about school work and all. And it really freak me out that i can just ignore all that pile of work that is right in front of me.
That really got me thinking real hard and scared i guess. I don't wanna be that one that gets screwed up, to be the black sheep in the class. But then i think im heading towards that direction now. Low attendance, always turning up late in class, not handling up assignments on time and getting low grades. Hur. Its like the works. I don't even have the strive to study hard and all, at least not how i was back in year one. During then, i remembered i still listened in class and make an effort to study harder. Now, i don't even try.
I used to think that i can just skim pass things easily. That luck was always on my side. I remembered i didnt study hard enough for PSLE, not for O levels either, and definitely not for any other tests and exams now. And yet everytime i thought i would sink to the bottom, the results wouldnt be as bad as i thought. I guess thats how i get so contented that i went off track, thinking everything would just fall in place easily huh.
Ah, hope it isnt too late to start bucking up now and actually persevere until the sem ends!
